When traveling through life your main concern is interacting with others. Don’t deny it; even if you think you’re better than everyone else, you still want to share with others. You could be a hermit but in some ways you’d do that to prove to society that you can live alone. Not convinced ? Think about what clothes you choose to wear when you get dressed, do you do that for you or do you do that for the others? If you were really doing that for you, you could walk down the street in your pyjamas or your underwear.
Social interaction is key. You are living for others because they need you and you need them. And this requires a lot of energy, focus, patience. People are not predictable, they change, they don’t agree with you and that is normal. As important as interacting is, being alone is a powerful way to recharge your batteries. Being alone matters as much.
The Forest
Last weekend, I went hunting with my father in-law. He has some property out in upstate NY. It was the first time I did that and I must say that I was not 100% convinced that I was going like it. I actually liked it a lot, even if I probably won’t do it often. It was a great experience. I won’t discuss here the pros/cons of hunting, that is not the point.
What was the great revelation of this day was staying alone (well, I was not really alone because my father in law was a couple of meters from me, but he was definitely not moving and not talking!), without moving, in the middle of the forest. I am a city guy, so not hearing even a distant car or siren is kind of abnormal for me. But there, sitting on a branch and watching the trees… hearing the noises of the forest, the wind and the animals around me was priceless. I don’t even know how much time we spent at one particular spot… 5 , 10, 30 minutes ?
This sensation of solitude was not only solitude from humans it was also solitude from deliberation. My mind was not focused on solving a problem or remembering something or even regretting that I didn’t take my camera… it was just absorbing the now, with no other distracting thoughts. Is that real (I mean really real real) meditation?
Meditation
I’ve tried to meditate, every morning. I get up early so I have time to do that. But every time, my mind wanders. I can never have this complete “focus on the now” thing. Because even if I try, I think of “I have to focus on the now”.
I think it is because I am not really alone. I am almost always surrounded by something material. Even in the nearby parks, I still hear the noises of the cars. When I stay at home, I see things that remind me of tasks at hand, or I hear the noise of the neighbours- which is ok… I mean we chose to live in an apartment after all.
Solitude is risky
Real solitude is hard to obtain. Plus it is a bit scary too. When you are really alone, no one can help you, you can only count on yourself. Maybe that is a key to countering your mind wandering: counting only on yourself.
How to achieve that exactly? Reaching solitude is taking a risk. You only decide what happens, no conformity, no appearence. It is only observing yourself. I think provoking this risk is the way do it. It doesn’t mean you have to take huge risks, but when you think of it, taking a risk is dangerous only because you are the only one to decide what is going on.
Eventually you will have to take a risk in your life. You better know how it feels. You will be alone at that time. You better learn to like yourself.
Take the risk now
What can you do to reach solitude and know yourself? Maybe listen to you… Some people are sad and they don’t even know it because they think it is normal. Because everyone around them tells them that everything is “normal”, that you are suppose to hate your job, that “always being in a hurry” is the new “working”. It is not normal at all. You are supposed to be happy. Listen to yourself. What do you really want? Why do you want that big screen TV exactly? Are you passionate about cinema to the point that you need a big screen?
You need to be alone sometimes and think just about yourself. You should take time and appreciate the now, and not think about the rest. You need to take a risk and appreciate it. Take a risk, leave work earlier, smile at people in the street, do what you want even if it is not “normal”. Appreciate that your heart is beating, appreciate that you have a pretty decent life compared to the rest of the world (if you’re sitting at a computer reading this, you do). Don’t be scared to be a little selfish… everybody is anyway.
Think about you but not the you from yesterday, not the you of tomorrow, the you of now.
Now for some news and suggestions:
Watch the interview of Adam Baker by Sam Spurlin.
Everett Bogue is on something great : read his last post Superhumans vs. drones.
Watch this video by Jason Fried: Why work doesn’t happen at work <– every manager should watch this!
Other stuff:
I am working on a new project this week and will probably continue with that for a long time now. I can tell you right now it will be a new blog. This one was my first “real” blog but mainly a playground to learn a thing or two about blogging. More information in the future, I will keep you updated!!
Take care.